Every time I finish a journal I take a few moments to review what has occurred in my life during the time I have kept that journal, and this week I finished another journal. This journal started in 2007 right after I turned 30.
I am now (cough cough) 34. Somewhere close to the beginning of that journal My husband and I started to discuss adoption and adding to our family. It has been a long journey thus far, with our year spent with the county, and time off and as of March 1, 2012 we will have been with Bethany for one year.
It is weird because while time has seemed to drag at times it has also gone by pretty quickly. I cannot believe that we have been in the process of adoption in one form or another for about three years.
I believe the Lord has taken this time to work in our home and prepare us for this new addition, but I'm not going to lie...some days it seems like it is never going to happen.
I told Brian I think every couple should have to answer some of the questions you are asked when you apply to adopt. They give you new insight into your partner, and for me at least they gave me a greater respect and love for my husband. My husband is a man of few words, and so to hear his answers to some of the questions they asked was a real eye opener. He is such an amazing man.
I am excited and nervous about meeting our child's birthparents. I am worried about them as well. I pray for them every night. I know I will never be able to comprehend the road they are going down, but I pray that the Lord would help me be sensitive to what they are going to go through, and to grant me wisdom in my dealings with them. I worry that we won't be able to live up to their expectations or their hopes and dreams for their child.
Most days I am okay with waiting, but some days...like today...I really just want to get to the next phase of waiting...placement pending...then placement.
I know that in the end I will be able to look back at this journey and see just how the Lord moved and worked in our situation, and I look forward to that day.
For now I am happy to read, nap, and enjoy the quiet of the day, because I know once Baby B arrives those moments of absolute laziness will be over (and I am so cool with that).
http://waitingfamilies.bethany.org/home/california/92
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